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This is not so much a question as it is a rumination. I started following you a year or so back. In the beginning I was like many who knew little about you and even less about NXIVM. Finding thing I was reading to be strange, I bought some of the hype. You were very open & seemed so genuine. I followed you because you are so relatable. I continued to read more into NXIVM and the case against Mr. Raniere and the members that had charges brought against them. I continued to question the public narrative.

I honestly feel that you have advanced the quest in questioning the flaws in due process. It's also enlightening to see how people from all walks of life can bond over shared search for equality and justice.

I want to thank you for being the sweet, warm person you are.

Now for the questions. Were you able to maintain the friendships you made in NXIVM? Are you still working as an actress or has this experience made it more difficult to get roles?

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Nov 19, 2022Liked by Nicki Clyne

Nicki, I find it so strange that no one in the community has come forward to discuss the technology of Executive Success Systems and NXIVM. I’m a student of NLP, Tony Robbins, hypnosis and various human potential philosophies and amidst all the narrative of the court case, I can’t help but want to assess for myself whether these techniques would help the broader public create effective personal change. Do people have manuscripts laying around their homes? How and/or when will these teachings get out there for the public to assess fairly?

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Nov 19, 2022Liked by Nicki Clyne

Strange bit of self-indulgence, but the surprise is as in the text. So unexpected it's difficult to explain to people I work with, and I'm not sure I understand it myself so let's just say I'm emitting words without true comprehension.

This is going to be a long preamble into a little spark of life.

Advancing into old age, the last thing I expected to acquire in my life was a teenage girl as a kind-of hanger-on. She has a boyfriend - it's not that kind of relationship. He's an annoyingly nice, laid-back bloke. Insufferably so, in fact. In vocal terms, she is a Zeppelin full of words. Puncture it and they leak out under pressure in enormous volumes. None of which make any sense. She's like a word-processor on Benzedrine.

Some years ago I started working in a Pub (USA - 'Bar') locally and this girl joined the same day as me. She was under 18 then and had to leave work latest at Ten pm. After the lockdowns finished, she was over 18 and could stay at the Pub for closing and cleaning. Which meant she was leaving the Pub at maybe two in the morning. I think (don't 'know', just think) her parents are divorced since she's never once mentioned her father in three years, but I know she's had a very fraught time with her Mum. At least that's what I read into the omissions.

Since I started working with her (I no longer work at the pub) I've put her up in my house two or three times since things boiled over at home. However, house rules demanded she accompany me for the walks with the Dogs. There's a reason I can tweet at 2:00 in the morning - and it's not because I go to bed late..!...

So when she leaves the Pub at silly-o'clock in the morning, sometimes she's waiting for me outside the house for a dogwalk if things are a bit fragile at home. Whilst she's now in her early twenties and a archetypal airhead, she's also a victim of 'Education, education, education' (Tony Blair - 1997). I had to teach her how to tell the time from a circular clock. She wasn't taught at school. Until she met me, she thought that when the stars appeared in the night sky, that they rearranged in random patterns every night. So I taught her a little bit of astronomy and bought her a little portable telescope from Ebay.

That little bit of inspiration has hit her like a thunderbolt. I taught her how and where to spot planets and one morning she couldn't contain herself to tell me excitedly she'd used her Smartphone to look up some simple Astronomy stuff. She very proudly showed me where the Pleiades were, and explained to me what the cluster was. She now knows there are as many as two uses of a smartphone - Snapchat and Astronomy. (I'm not an astronomer....)

I never had children and it's been some years since I was married. However, I'm beginning to think I'm some kind of surrogate parent, or even grandparent. I get picked up and\or discarded at irregular intervals (just a term of language - I'm not being melodramatic or self-pitying, it's not a form of resentment).

I'm not certain if I'm trying to say anything really. Just that sometimes something comes at you unexpectedly from leftfield and against all the odds, you find you're mentally equal to it.

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Nov 19, 2022·edited Nov 19, 2022Liked by Nicki Clyne

Do you have a dog? And if not, why not?

Asking because I don't understand chat threads so I figured I'd learn by attempting to participate.

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Two thumbs up! Trying to figure this app out….ugggg

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Hi Nicki,

I'm glad you're continuing to find the best inside this whole public "mess". I will be subscribed and follow along. Maybe even start something similar.

What is your perspective on a person who wants to comment or ask questions, but is afraid of what might happen to them if they do?

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...'...I prefer to collaborate...'...

You've been silent for a while and I suspect you're either hurting or rebuilding.

We're here for your. We can share, collaborate or just talk. If you CAN do this alone, then sorry for getting in your face.

But all the same, let us worry about you.

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Hi Nicki, can you comment on your marriage to Alison Mack and whether it was a marriage of convenience or romantic love? A lot of people wonder this and so far I haven't seen you address it publicly (apologies if you have and I've missed it!!) Thank you.

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Hi Nicki! I would like to ask if your marriage to Allison was real? Did you really love her? Have you spoken to her since the divorce?

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